Hey Ally!

On my best friend

We talk so often it’s hard not to paint such a vivid portrait of you—to simply write about Ally. But today, I felt a special obligation to write you something in gratitude of your friendship, not to describe you as you are, as your own person, but rather as what you mean to me in particular. I also wanted to inaugurate this blog, inspired by you and your philosophies and the many things we pontificate together in sorting ourselves out. Today, I wish to be selfish and tell everyone about you as MY best friend, MY champion.

Best friends come in and out of my life, but there’s no one like you whose path I can’t help but feel intertwines with mine at such significant moments. You were always apart of the puzzle, my missing piece, as I would say. When we finally became closer, it truly completed me. We talk so much about our formation of identity and self, of growing up in the same sleepy Midwestern town, and of encountering the same characters that it’s hard, in retrospect, knowing we went through the same things in solitude and in suffering separately, because had we been a team, we would’ve had so much to share. That the universe would bring us together at all is a miracle indeed. We’re so lucky to have found each other in this madness and entropy and to be steeped in this thicc of a shared history.

Your kindness, understanding, and knowledge has been a privilege few have truly been privy to, so naturally I suspect I’ve been marked by exception, by something so divine and predestined that it feels as if it could only have been ordained by a greater power! But on the other hand, I want to believe in the potency of agency and romance, and say that we chose each other—that among everyone in this big fat world it couldn’t have been anybody but you.

A banal thing to say, surely, but I feel as if I’ve known you for several lifetimes. I’m think you’d agree it’s true to no end. Time and time again we unite at our lowest points to heal, to reflect, to find solace in each other and at our highest points to celebrate our victories, big and small, and to delight in excitement. Our stories constantly overlap, intertwine, and stay consonant in every chapter and all the places we’ve been. We’ve discovered so much together in the formative years of our lives, taking it all in stride. I’ve never found my own experiences so deeply resonated in another person and feel secure in all the wonderment we’ve created.

You stress so often that you’re constantly giving and giving to others what you’ve given to me with no return, and the tiresome state you find yourself in making new friends. Have faith. The right ones will know how to savor your brilliance and energy. That luminosity is there only to be discovered by the right people. Not everyone will know how to appreciate beauty even when it is placed directly in front of them, offered up shining, glinting on a silver platter. There’s always hope for a bright girl like you. I know you’re going through difficult times, so it’s the least I can do to be a touchstone of comfort and support while you handle these matters as best you can. I’ll be your knight in shining armor and you’ll by my muse, my endless wellspring of inspiration <3 You’re my safety, my comfort, and I couldn’t go a day without you on my screen, in my earphones, and in my heart :) I wish nothing but the best for you and to be with you in the same city. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH xx

Happy reading!